Heart Rating: ♥♥♥♥♥5Hearts
Reviewer: Pixie
Blurb: Thaddeus: A warrior cursed with a Blood-Rage.
Stephen: A terminally ill prince.
Reunited after nine years, Thaddeus discovers Stephen is targeted
by the Gods, but with his cursed rage, he wonders–Is he the wisest
choice to become Stephen’s protector?
Thaddeus: A warrior cursed with a Blood-Rage. Stephen: A terminally
ill prince. Separated for nine years, they are reunited again by two
warring factions of Gods and a mysterious mist of light, all of whom
have their eyes on Stephen. Knowing the dangers of his Blood-Rage,
Thaddeus must determine if he is the best choice to become Stephen’s
warrior guard. But with the Aggregate System of Gods involved, he may
not have a choice. In spite of his terminal illness, Stephen may be the
prophesied Catalyst who will bring about the downfall of the Aggregate.
In order to hold on to their reign, the Aggregate have a plan… and that
plan includes the manipulation of Thaddeus’s love for Stephen.
CONTENT ADVISORY: This title has a bittersweet ending.
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Review: Thaddeus is a warrior who has been cursed
with Blood-Rage and his dreams are leading him home; a place where his
family were slaughtered. The young prince needs him, but Thaddeus has a
fear that his Blood-Rage will do more harm than good. Stephen is a young
prince who is seriously ill and is also cursed. The only time he feels
safe is with Thaddeus, the man who saved him years before. Now, he
needs Thaddeus more than ever.
What an absolutely fantastic fantasy that is well written and leaves
you longing for more. Thaddeus has been cursed and is well known as The
Marked One, who leaves dead bodies after his Blood-Rage. Stephen is a
frail prince who has lived longer than anyone thought he would. These
two, the warrior and the prince, are pulled together by dreams and a
bond neither knew about and the gods who are manipulating them and those
around them.
This story is not a romance. It is a true fantasy that has elements
of love that is just starting to develop. Thaddeus and Stephen are our
main characters and both have their own form of anguish. Stephen,
because of his illness and Thaddeus, because of the losses in the past
and his curse. and they are both being manipulated by the Gods. We
slowly learn, as we progress through the book, of the manipulation and
the players the gods are using. and we get an idea of why the gods are
doing the manipulation, but things don’t always go to plan, as some gods
are playing two sides.
Although there is sex in this book, it is between secondary
characters that use it more for control. Although Thaddeus does have
sex, it is because of the Red Moon Day (his species mating time). There
are some nasty characters in this book who you will cheerfully want
something bad to happen to and some great characters who you want the
best for. The world building is quite good, but I can see us getting
even more in future books, so we can get a clearer picture of the game
that is in play. we get some fantastic descriptions of the surrounding
areas and we get a good idea of what Thaddeus and Stephen are being
shaped for.
Although we are given a warning that it has a bittersweet ending it
doesn’t. It has a ‘to be continued’ ending that made me want the next
book…now. I will be reading this book again when the next one is
released, just so I can say ‘ahhh’ when I open the next book. Sighing in
satisfaction, as I see how Thaddeus will rescue Stephen from the High
Dolen (some of the god’s high priest). If you want to know more, read
the book…Bwahahaha.
I recommend this to those who love fantasy, gods manipulation, human
manipulation, nasty brothers, fierce warriors, a strong bond between
prince and warrior, fantastic back stories and a brilliant ‘to be
continued’ ending.
Bromance stories discussed here. 18+ only please. Some content may not be suitable for anyone below legal age of adult. Paranormal/Sci-fi/Fantasy...
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Thursday, September 6, 2012
"The Connecting Flame" Excerpt
Blurb:
Thaddeus: A warrior cursed with a Blood-Rage. Stephen: A terminally
ill prince. Reunited after nine years, Thaddeus discovers Stephen is
targeted by the Gods, but with his cursed rage, he wonders--Is he the
wisest choice to become Stephen's protector?
REUNION...
Thaddeus
lifted his bow and placed the arrow to the string. The buck stood only twenty
feet away, grazing calmly on the leaves of some lower tree branches. It was
healthy and strong and would make for good meat. Whatever Thaddeus had left
over, he would give to a needy family. As he pulled back the string and took
aim, focusing on a clean, quick kill… until the growl of a lone predatory salar
tore through the air and sent the buck leaping away in fear.
Thaddeus
cursed in frustration. He turned to the source of the interruption and heard
the frenzied growl again, but only one thing could make a salar sound like that
before attacking… human prey.
Forgetting
the need to hunt for that evening's meal, Thaddeus gripped his bow and hurried
over the hills, darting around trees and brush. The growl had come from the
area near the Weeping Boulder. He would have to get there quickly in order to
do what he could to save the unfortunate person who had disturbed the salar's
rest. The man-eating beasts were merciless in their killings, usually clawing
the belly open and letting the scent of warm blood grip them. They would feed
upon their victim as it lay slowly dying.
As
he leapt up onto the crest of a ravine, he looked down onto the far bank of the
river… and froze in place.
There,
with his back against a huge oak tree, stood a youth, dressed in what appeared
to be the traveling clothes of nobility: a light blue tunic with a dark blue
cloak clasped at his neck. Straggly blond hair hung limply to his shoulders. His
breeches were also dark blue and his black boots reached his knees. The young
noble stood like a statue, perfectly still as a snarling salar growled and
unsheathed its fangs before him.
For
the first time in six years, Thaddeus felt his heart jump into his throat. It
was a sign of life he had not felt within since his soul had died in the Verma
camp. For his dream had come to life before his eyes. He saw the salar crouch
into position, ready to leap, and that pulled him out of his shock. He lifted
the bow and arrow and took careful aim. "Don't move!" he shouted to
the young noble.
The
sound of his voice forced the salar to growl once again. From the way the cat
crouched, the rolling muscles of its shoulders and back, it would lunge at any
second. Thaddeus aimed for the neck and let the arrow fly just as the
man-eating cat leapt into the air.
With
his Rantha strength, the arrow had enough force behind it to rip through the
golden hide and muscle, piercing the neck all the way through. Thaddeus watched
with uncertainty as he nocked another arrow to his bow, ready to let it fly if
the animal tried once more to attack, but no. The salar fell at the youth's
feet, dead.
Relieved,
Thaddeus drew in a heavy breath and let it out, releasing the excess energy
built up by what had happened. He quickly removed the arrow from his bow and stashed
it back into the quiver hanging off his back, but he could not take his eyes
from the young noble.
Was
this what his dream meant for him to do, simply to save the life of this youth?
No, there was something more to this than just felling a salar to keep a noble
youth from a violent death, and Thaddeus needed to find out exactly what.
He
started down the ravine wall. "Are you all right?" he called before
he leapt and somersaulted over the river, landing just a few feet away from the
dead animal. He turned, now able to focus clearly on the youth.
Small
in stature, but still tall enough to reach Thaddeus's shoulder, the youth
looked extremely frail and thin. In spite of his flushed face and skin, he had
a very comely face. In fact, with a healthy complexion he would be considered
beautiful. His eyes were round and the color of a clear spring sky, or would be
if not for the glassy film of illness clouding them. His strong jaw smoothed
down into a round chin. His had a small, straight nose, turned up a little at
the tip. And his lips, though full and shapely, were also pale and dry, the
symptoms of sickness clearly evident. Yet Thaddeus wondered why such a sick and
flushed youth would not be sweating. Not even a face-to-face encounter with one
of the deadliest creatures of Fuhrahl Forest had caused him to perspire.
Thaddeus
then saw the stone around the youth's neck and his heart almost stopped. He
hitched a breath as the reality of truth came at him from all around his mind. Memories,
desire, hope long forgotten; all of those things culminated within his being as
he locked eyes with the youth, uncertain he could accept, yet uncertain he
could not accept what he knew to be true.
"Stephen?"
he whispered, unable to give any more strength to his voice.
The
youth smiled at him and reached out a shaking hand. Thaddeus hurried to his
side, grasping that hand. And the second they touched, both reacted to the
physical contact. A surge of energy flowed through them from one to the other,
and Stephen clutched Thaddeus's hand with surprising strength that overwhelmed
the warrior. He had not expected such a grip from this obviously very ill young
man. He looked into those glassy blue eyes, now swimming in tears. A smile full
of tender knowing and contentment shone from Stephen's face, and Thaddeus felt
the ice around his heart start to thaw from a gentle and healing heat, which
had been far too long a stranger to him.
What
happened next was so natural and so welcomed it took a few seconds for Thaddeus
to remember the curse on the child prince he had met all those years before.
"I
knew… you'd come back."
Thaddeus
blanched. Those words had come from Stephen's own mouth.
Stephen
had spoken!
But
Thaddeus had no time to revel in such a glorious revelation. Stephen's weary
eyes rolled back into his head and his body buckled. Thaddeus caught him around
the waist and eased him down, cradling him in his arms.
"By
Enreak, what is going on?" Thaddeus wasn't sure if he had spoken the words
aloud. As he held the unconscious prince, he gazed down at the face that had
many times, since his becoming The Marked One, haunted his dreams. The veins
within the eyelids were prominent, deepening the gray coloring around the eyes.
Stephen looked so much like the child of Thaddeus's memory. He had grown taller,
of course, but the lung sickness had ravaged him without mercy.
"How
is it you are alive?" the warrior choked out, as he ran a trembling hand
over Stephen's pale and beloved face. "You have grown up, my Prince."
He
noticed the stone, now encased in gold, hanging from a leather thong around
Stephen's neck. He carefully ran his fingers over it, the smooth, oblong
surface echoing traces of memory in his mind. That day, so long in the past,
now rushed up to greet him in the present and it felt like these last nine years
had never come between them; as though Thaddeus had never lost his family to
slaughter that night, never sought to learn how to fight in order to avenge
their deaths, never met and fell in love with a member of the Swarrin race
named Terahn, and never lost that love to an act of violence sending Thaddeus
over the edge into darkness.
"Stephen,"
he whispered, his voice choking under the strain of the emotion fighting with
his reason. Stephen could not be alive, but here he was, in Thaddeus's arms. And
he had held onto the stone, onto the memory of a rebellious youth who had saved
him on that fateful day.
"Stephen,
Stephen, Stephen." Thaddeus brushed the tips of his calloused fingers over
the stone, worn by Stephen like a medal or, even still, an amulet of
protection, just as Thaddeus had told him it would be. "Stephen, is this
how you survived… by holding onto my memory, just as I have survived by holding
onto yours?"
The
tears that fell from his eyes were of joy, and for the first time in what
seemed forever, Thaddeus did not deny them. Stephen was alive! The source of
his hope, the small candle of light in his darkness, the treasure still shining
in his burned-out soul, was alive, and talking.
Unconsciously,
he pulled the youth tighter into his embrace and lowered his lips to Stephen's
ear, whispering; "Is this a dream?"
But
in a shattering second, something happened to turn the dream into a nightmare. Thaddeus
felt the chill of steel against his cheek. He heard the sound of a hard-edged
voice full of violent warning.
"Release
His Highness now, Marked One, or I will lay claim to the legend of being your
executioner."
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Friday, August 31, 2012
"Passion's Chill" (Excerpt...)
Blurb:
A FINAL REQUEST...
With his beloved Prince Stephen sentenced to be executed for treason, Thaddeus, the warrior cursed by the Gods with a Blood-Rage, must fight Stephen's accuser to the death. There is one problem: He needs the Gods' blessing to be victorious.
A FINAL REQUEST...
He walked up to the platform and examined the rings, where
Stephen's chains would be attached. The thought of his prince in such a
precarious position made Thaddeus ill. So instead, he focused on Kinarr's pain.
"You wanted to become Stephen's warrior guard."
Kinarr nodded as he sat on the edge of the platform. "Yes."
Thaddeus quietly fingered the rings, feeling their coldness,
their lack of anything symbolic other than lack of freedom. He shivered.
"I have taken your only source of comfort from you."
"No, Thaddeus. Never. In your love for Stephen, I know
he will be safe. That is comfort enough for me."
Thaddeus studied him with fondness. He sat beside his
friend, their shoulders almost touching. Kinarr was a gentle soul, full of love
for his prince and his people. He would be an honorable and trusted friend. How
far that trust would go was what Thaddeus needed to find out.
"But now you have no one to share your life. With
Stephen and me joining, with Shumway giving his affections to Pemura, it
remains to be determined—who will take care of you?"
Kinarr chuckled, but it was full of dim mirth. "You?"
Thaddeus smiled. "I will always be your friend, and
Stephen will always hold a place in his heart for you. You must know and
believe that."
"I do, Thaddeus. It is enough."
"It's never enough, Kinarr, as noble as those words
are. It is, however, very brave."
"Noble am I?" Kinarr chuckled again. "No. Brave
am I? Far from it. But… I would never dishonor either Stephen or Shumway with
my selfish desires."
Thaddeus smirked. "Hardly selfish."
"Hardly not. For this pain is about me, and what I
cannot have. I do not fault you for that, and I do not fault Shumway. I fault
myself for feeling too much. Someday such a flaw will get me killed. And for a
Rashule, there is no greater shame than to lose your focus of duty in the
blinding light of selfish passion. Therefore, I harbor my feelings like a fish
caught in a net, and I refuse to set them free. If the pain is netted, it will
at least die in its own time."
He turned to Thaddeus, expectant. "I would ask you to speak
not a word of this conversation to anyone, even to His Highness. By my honor,
Thaddeus, I would not have him pity me. When you and he are joined, I will
guard both of you as is my destiny and honored duty. I refuse to let anything
other than that direct my course."
Thaddeus absorbed these words like parched earth absorbed a
long-awaited rainfall. "Then it is right we took this walk tonight,
Kinarr. For in your heart you have shown me a man capable of such honor as to
grant Stephen and myself a final request."
Kinarr studied him carefully. "You will win tomorrow,
Thaddeus. Stephen's life depends on it."
Thaddeus smiled at Kinarr's confidence in him. He put a hand
to the back of Kinarr's neck and gave it a fond squeeze. "In case I do not
win, my friend, hear my words and heed them."
Kinarr gazed at him, and suddenly Thaddeus could see the
blood drain from the soldier's face, and he knew Kinarr understood what was
about to be asked of him. "Say it then," Kinarr choked.
Thaddeus breathed in deeply. "I would ask you to take
Stephen's life."
Kinarr shut his eyes, his mouth twisted in pain. "Thaddeus,"
he whispered.
"Make it quick," Thaddeus continued, "through
the heart. And hold him fast as you do so. I will not be able to embrace him in
death. I give you that task, as a trusted friend. Let him feel the arms of love
around him in his last moments. Do not let the Dolens receive any satisfaction
in having their guards do the deed. My final wish is for Stephen to be honored,
to be saved from the Dolens' form of death. For death by the hand of one who
loves is easier to bear than from the hand of an enemy."
Kinarr stared at him, and for a long moment he was unable to
move. Finally, he found his feet, as unsteady as they were, and stood. The look
of abhorrence on his face made Thaddeus wonder if he had placed his trust in
Kinarr too soon. "Thaddeus! I cannot believe what you are… what you ask
is…"
"Is from his heart as well as mine. We have discussed
it. It is our wish."
"Then why did he not ask me?"
"Because he wanted me to be able to trust you. Can I
trust you, Kinarr?"
Turning and stumbling, Kinarr fell to his knees and
swallowed heavily as if the weight of what was asked hit him square in the
heart. "Thaddeus," he whispered with a sob, the words struggling to
get past the choke-hold on his throat. "What you ask will be near
impossible for me."
Thaddeus knelt beside him, pulling him into an understanding
embrace. "You're the only one we can trust who has enough strength to
carry it out, Kinarr. Can you—will you do this?"
Kinarr lowered his head into one hand, his tears seeping
through his fingers. He clenched his other hand on his thigh, and a tremble of
horror and sorrow rolled through his body. Finally, he removed his hand from
his eyes, partnering it with his other.
"Yes, of course I will. Only, there will be two souls
meeting you on the wind should that happen." He looked up at Thaddeus,
silent tears streaming down his face. "No matter the Aggregate decreeing
Stephen to die, the Dolens will never allow me to escape their wrath should I
take their pleasure of killing Stephen away from them. They will throw me into
prison. And with both you and Stephen dead, my life will mean nothing to me
anymore. Once I take his life… I will then take my own."
Thaddeus shut his eyes, the weight of Kinarr's words flaying
his soul. "Kinarr…"
"Those are my terms, Thaddeus. I would do this for
Stephen because I love him as I do my own life, but I will not give the Dolens
the satisfaction of having any control over this."
Thaddeus’s own tears threatened to spill. He quickly pulled
Kinarr into his arms. "Then so be it. Let it be thus, my friend, and
Stephen's judgment in you is sound. I know that now. And I will be able to
enter the arena carrying with me a peace the Dolens would never suspect to be
housed within the Marked One's soul."
Kinarr pulled away from Thaddeus’s comforting hold, enough
so he could look deeply into the Rantha's eyes. "Stephen's love for you… it
is as true as the sun, Thaddeus. As true and as bright. His judgment is sound
to choose you for his protector."
Thaddeus pulled Kinarr back into his embrace, clutching him
tightly. "By all that is right and true, by Stephen's name… we will be
victorious tomorrow, should even death rise up to meet us."
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Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Writing Fantasy--Using Magnifying Glass to Find an Audience
Writing
a Fantasy M/M Romance series is not easy. For one thing, there's not a
huge audience for the genre', not compared to contemporary settings.
It's great if it's within Paranormal parameters, but to world build
off-world (A/U), it's another story... pun intended.
Then there's that--world building. To introduce a story line taking place in another universe is another problem, especially when there are plots and subplots and main characters and supplemental
characters. Yup. Lots going on. The prequel to my "Harp & Sword
Chronicles" will probably never be published, as it's too, too,
world-buildy. Not enough sex, and it's all about Thaddeus (especially
during the second part), and how he became the 'Marked One'. Stephen is
only a child at that time, though mature for his age, and is only seen
in the first part. The entire prequel is over 200 pages long. I'm
working on it in case someday I offer it as a free read, but there's
much to cut out due to overbearing exposition. And I have to ask myself,
will anyone really care about this part of the world-building? Can I
simply refer to stages of the prequel in future installments, such as in
exposition dumps here and there, along with sparse flashback sequences?
Much of the prequel is alluded to in "Passion's Chill", some scenes
used as one or two flashbacks, but it's a conundrum. It's a difficult
task, but... Thaddeus and Stephen's love story is deep and built on a
foundation, as well as destined to be. It took me over 10 years to where
I truly see possibilities for this series to be ongoing, almost like a
TV show, with each installment like an episode.
But, again, the
problem is finding an audience. All I can offer is an intimate
relationship between two young men who care for each other deeply, and
to have that love tested time and time again into a forged bond that
seemingly nothing can break. I'm not going to guarantee that their love
will constantly be without conflict, as they deal with abusive magicks
and divine entities who just love to toy with them, but... it will be
strong and powerful. Enough to win every time? Well, we'll see.
My greatest desire for this series is that people will give it a chance
to grow on them. I believe they will be pleasantly surprised. =D
-Hurt/Comfort Never Felt So Good-
~Myr~
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
The second book in my "Harp & Sword Chronicles" will be released September 1st. "Passion's Chill" takes up where "The Connecting Flame" left off and will have a HFN ending. I hope to come up with some advertising/contests soon, so stay tuned here or on my FB page at Myristica Onenine for upcoming details. I will be posting an excerpt on Release Day, both for TCF and for PC. My thoughts are disorganized on how to do a Blog party so I'll be working on seeing what I can do to get that going soon as well.
Until then, I hope that Fantasy, Hurt/Comfort in a M/M Romance is your choice of reading material. If so, then Thaddeus and Stephen deliver on all counts! =D
You can purchase both books here:
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Enjoy!
Blessed Be!
~Myr~
Sunday, April 29, 2012
New Author Page at Amazon.com
http://www.amazon.com/-/e/B007Y8SJKO
More to follow as I get set up. =D
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More to follow as I get set up. =D
Saturday, April 28, 2012
"THE CONNECTING FLAME" ON KINDLE!!!
http://www.amazon.com/Connecting-Flame-Sword-Chronicles-ebook/dp/B007X7EIB0/ref=sr_1_1?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1335621718&sr=1-1
HURT/COMFORT NEVER FELT SO GOOD! (Read it for yourself and see what I mean. ;D)
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HURT/COMFORT NEVER FELT SO GOOD! (Read it for yourself and see what I mean. ;D)
Saturday, April 21, 2012
My FIRST REVIEW -- 5 Hearts!!!
Pixie gave 'The Connecting Flame' 5 hearts and her review really pumped me up. I know the reviewers got advanced copies, but to have located this on the day of official release, got me right in the heart! Amazing. Thank you, Pixie at Good Book Reviews!!
=D
Chapter 1 Excerpt from "The Connecting Flame"
CHAPTER
1
"Will
you die this day?"
"No…
but you will."
"Oh,
how I wish that were so."
~Marked
One and challenger~
"It's
him, isn't it?" one man asked in a hushed whisper.
"So
it seems," replied another. "Skulls on the hilt show Verma
craftsmanship. Yet he is not Verma. The stories tell—"
"Stories?"
one old man snickered. "I've actually seen the results of his madness. He
leaves dead bodies behind, everywhere he goes. Warlords don't even want him
around. They say he's bad for their business."
"More
bad for their egos," said a younger man. "They say no one can kill
him."
"I've
heard he's possessed by some demon," said another man.
"Possessed?"
The old man snickered again. He was possibly the village cynic, the type who
would never let the opportunity go by to set people straight on the dos and don'ts
of speculation. "More like he's
the demon."
The
patrons continued whispering amongst themselves, thinking the itinerant warrior
at the bar could not hear, but his Rantha ears picked up each word wafting over
the air, ghost-like, though no less subtle than a black snake slithering across
white sand.
Nor
was he the only one who could hear. The head of a gang who sat nearby was, in
fact, listening and smirking to every comment. The warrior had seen the
arrogant whelp when coming into the tavern and noticed immediately the black
leathers and gold and silver studded leather gauntlets.on his forearms, not to
mention the gaudy sword at the youth's hip—it could hardly be of any good use
to him. The blade was too long for his arm. The fool was more into appearances
and bullying than anything, and the smirking mixed badly with his swarthy
complexion, pitted with scars of past pus-filled boils. The inept attempts for
attention were all that was needed to determine the youth would end up in a
grave before he reached the age of twenty.
Not
interested in any sort of confrontation, the warrior tried to ignore him, but the
patrons would not let his dismissal go on for long. Their observations would
lead to yet another bloody skirmish, and this night of all nights he would rather
forget his nefarious reputation.
The
gang leader's two leather-clad friends, both possibly the same age he was, but
with more obnoxious demeanors, hissed with amused laughter as their so-called
leader clutched his cod-piece, mocking the patrons in front of them.
The
warrior felt the whelp's probing and expectant gaze sear into his back, but he
did not pay him any mind, hoping his lack of interest would deter any
challenge. The youth really was too young to die a fool's death. Then again,
foolishness held no respect for age.
The
murmurs continued. "They say his rage could ignite a smoldering volcano,"
one young man ventured.
"I
was told it did, once," said another.
The
speculations and observations roamed through the tavern from one side to the
other, and then back again, like choppy waves.
The
warrior sighed quietly. No, not so subtle at all.
He
considered using his tattered gray cloak to cover the sword's ivory hilt, as its
carved skulls would clearly identify him to others, but then quickly shrugged
off the urge. The people here already suspected him of being the infamous
cursed warrior. No sense hiding the fact now. He knew what he stirred inside of
people: the terror, the excitement, and the unquenchable curiosity that pushed
many into doing stupid things, but truth was truth no matter how ugly it
looked. And if anything in this world mattered to him, it was truth.
Terahn
had taught him that lesson.
For
a moment his mind went back to thoughts of his past, when a promising life had
been given him anew and his darkened corridors of madness had collapsed under
the heavy weight of shelter's embrace. Terahn's embrace.
A
warrior like no other, with a love for life as well as his people, the
Swarrin prince known as Terahn had at one time managed to sway the rebellious
spirit of an angry and unfocused young Rantha who could not see beyond the need
for vengeance.
Terahn's
love had at one time saved him from the path of bloodlust, until…
He
was so lost in memories of a love sacrificed in bloodshed's fury he barely
noticed the barkeep placing the wooden tankard of ale in front of him. The sweet
scent of the dark brew brought him out of his desire to run away within his
mind. He stared deeply into the liquid, like a seer scrying for anything to
help him understand. But no visions or signs rippled over the surface of the
ale. Like all other times before, epiphanies evaded him.
Why
he continued the inward analysis was beyond him, except that maybe it had
become habit—something to help turn his mind elsewhere other than his darkness.
Were it not for Terahn and a harp song played by a child prince that, even now,
toyed with his heart and mind, he never would have bothered to search for
answers at all.
With
a callused finger, made hard by the constant use of his cursed sword, he traced
a crack on the wooden counter. Once again there were the stares, the whispers,
and the scrutiny of those who wondered if they could take him in a fight. He
had trained himself to ignore it all without losing discernment. Even in the
midst of reminiscing, he could still maintain an unexplained awareness; it was a
mild side effect of the curse.
There
he would be, appearing to be lost in the past, or in thought, and the fools
would sneak up on him, carelessly thinking they were being smooth and strategic.
The body count had risen to one thousand five hundred sixty-eight, not counting
kills on the battlefield. He always tallied the bodies, not out of pride, but
out of his incessant need to plant himself in reality. He did not need the
constant reminder of who he was or why. Every time he looked down at his chest
and saw the mark, he remembered. No, the body count served as his focus.
Only
after the slayings, when he saw the blood and carnage wrought by his hand, did
he study those he had killed. He made it his penance never to forget the wounds
inflicted by his hand. Many he had killed were arrogant fools, but most were
warlords or slave owners, or people who reveled in the pain of others. No one
would miss them, certainly, but he was no better than they were, and he still
had not found the one destined to kill him—the one who could stop his maddening
existence.
He
considered it dumb luck that innocent people had not yet been victimized by his
mysterious curse and sword. Perhaps they knew enough to flee the second he
unsheathed the red steel, for he never fell into the Blood-Rage unless the need
to fight came upon him.
There
was a chance an innocent would someday feel the edge of his blade. The
possibility always played in the back of his mind, sometimes seeping into his
dreams at night, tormenting him. After all, killing an unarmed youth was the
reason for the curse. What would truly stop him from killing another when the
rage ignited?
The
whispers continued and the eyes still scrutinized him.
He
let out another bone-weary sigh—and felt the tingling in his blood. He quickly
looked out the tavern windows. The sky had taken on the notorious hint of red
as the sun began its descent into early evening. He shut his eyes. The craving
that all Rantha went through at this time of year still hovered like an
incoming storm a few hours away, but it would call to him soon. The tingling
signaled he would have to leave this village, after all. He lowered his head in
acceptance of his fate. A bed would have been nice, but it looked as though
such a simple pleasure would have to keep until the next village or the one
after that… or the one after that. Even if it weren't for the onset of the
craving, he would still have to leave. The villagers would certainly not let
him rest in peace if he stayed. No matter where he went his reputation failed
to allow him to go without notice. He had hoped, though, that news of his
nefarious actions had not traveled this far into Murgatara. He should have
known better.
He
surrendered to the call of unyielding misfortune once again. If it were not for
the dreams, those torturous plagues infecting his sanity and reason, he would
have bypassed this continent all together, to head northwest into the ice-lands
of Olkon. The land of driving winds and snow would have been more fitting
company for his disposition.
But
this time his path was not his own.
This
time his dreams told him where to walk.
Perhaps
the dreams were calling him to what he yearned for. Perhaps the killers of his
parents and older brother awaited his arrival, and in the process of killing
them, one of them would end his own miserable life.
He
gripped the tankard of ale and drank with all the casualness of one who didn't
seem to matter, or just didn't care.
He
grew tired of the barkeep's constant stare and slowly lifted his gaze to meet
the scrutiny. "Something on your mind?" He spoke in a voice both low
and calm.
The
barkeep hitched a breath when looking into his eyes, but his rage lay dormant
now. The barkeep should feel blessed. Instead, he cleared his throat and spoke
his fears.
"We
don't want any trouble here."
The
infamous warrior gulped down the ale, then set the empty tankard on the counter
without a sound. He flipped a coin into the barkeep's hand. "Then don't
make any." He responded, at ease, undisturbed.
As
he turned to leave, a sword blocked his path. He glanced down at the steel
blade nestled close enough to kiss his throat, and then slid his gaze to the
hand of the young man stupid enough to seek challenge.
The
cursed warrior wondered if he should just kill the idiot for that reason alone.
* * * *
The
sixteen other people in the tavern stilled as abruptly as if they had stumbled
upon a long-forgotten tomb.
Silence
filled the air, lessened only by heavy breathing, normally unheard beneath the
bawdy yelling and carousing of the tavern's regular patrons.
The
lone warrior, however, paid no attention to the stares and gaping mouths of the
people. His only focus was the challenger before him, the pockmarked face of
the warlord youth who only wanted to show off in front of his two snickering
young friends.
The
warrior ignored them. Only if they made any moves to help their friend would he
turn his attention their way.
"Will
your eyes flare red this night, Marked One?" The young challenger spoke
with a hint of humor to his voice. He thought this was a joke. The punch line,
however, would not be funny.
The
warrior did not immediately reply. Though he did not yet feel the burn of his
rage, steaming contempt poured into him at yet another fool who sought to call
him out.
In
spite of the drunken laughter his self-declared assassin spewed forth, the
warrior spoke in a calm voice. "Leave, boy. Now."
"Or
you'll do what?"
"Hey,
we don't want any trouble here," the barkeep repeated, this time with more
urgency, trying in vain to ease the escalating tension. "Take it outside
if you want to fight."
The
youth laughed heartily; the arrogant laughter of one who believed he could not
die.
"The
act of taking my life does not belong to you," the warrior decreed,
quietly, as though this action on the youth's part was as boring as watching
flies flittering through air. The curse on his soul had been specific, even
though shrouded in symbolism.
A
storm of red tides form
As
each man seeks to kill.
But
only one will slay your heart,
In
the midst of Passion's chill.
He
doubted this arrogant whelp was the one destined to take his life, for his body
fell into the heated torture of the rage. The symptoms advanced like a familiar
enemy. His blood would begin to boil and his breathing would increase. Sweat
would soon begin to flow down his rugged face and body, drenching his long,
black hair into dripping strands. His normally green-tinged amber eyes would
flare red like molten rock, as would the mark on his chest and his sword, both
pulsating with each beat of his caged heart. The vibration of the sword would
intensify, harmonizing its balance with the rage of the one who wielded it.
Ripples
of heat now filled his limbs like a passionate craving. Already he began to see
red, literally, as every image his eyes beheld became distorted in a fire's
rippling heat. The face of this youth wavered in his vision, taking on demonic
form. He always saw the souls of those he attacked, saw them as one would look
upon the face of evil itself. He would feel their desire to shed blood, to rape
and maim. He would taste their bloodlust on his lips and it always served to
intensify his own.
And,
like all those other times before when his rage sought to drown out his reason,
a memory sought to invade his thoughts and pull him back to stability: an
innocent child prince, pure of soul. Harp music, played by that child's once
nimble fingers, would seep through the madness, break through the inner
turmoil, but he would always try to lock it away in the darkest halls of his
mind.
Stephen, Stephen, Stephen.
The
name filtered in, trying to rip at the fabric of his threatening madness. He
fought to push it back, for the precious memory of Stephen's purity of heart
was not meant to be quartered in the presence of a tainted soul.
"Not
here," he hissed, not realizing he had spoken out loud.
"Here
or outside, makes no difference," his challenger taunted. "You will
fight me this day."
The
youth's mocking voice echoed somewhere in his awareness, drowned out by the
beautiful melodies of Stephen's music from his distant past. They always managed
to touch his mind, in spite of the many attempts to push them away.
The dreams, the dreams, the dreams.
Why had the dreams called him back to this place?
Stephen
had died a long time ago. He simply could not have survived all these years,
not with a lung ailment such as he had suffered.
And
then came another memory—this one of a white-haired man with a silver and gold
pipe, playing discordant melodies heard in the winding halls of past and
present, with fluctuating and non-uniform patterns. The sultry voice of the man
known as The Piper lingered in his mind… "Care
to make a wager, friend? Your heart's life will come to a timely end."
He
winced. He remembered the ragged hands on his body, the invasion, the ripping
of violent intrusion, and the pipe music played on and on as his captors had
taken him again and again.
Terahn.
He
saw Terahn's head rolling to a stop at his feet, heard the laughter of The
Piper as the being taunted him with the death of his lover.
And
now, upon lifting his gaze, a searing red took shape in front of him. The music
stopped, and all he saw was the face of a warrior smiling madly at him, covered
in the markings of the Verma, painted black and blue and white. The mouth
twisted upward, revealing blackened teeth sculpted by chisel to form fangs able
to rip and shred.
The
heat of his rage grabbed him viciously with burning talons. His hand went to
his sword's hilt, and the face before him stopped laughing. The four metal
skull clasps holding the curved sword within its open-sided scabbard unlatched
as though unseen fingers had flipped them open. The sword came out of its home
with the ease of constant practice, and those within the tavern saw for the
first time the curved, reddened steel with the teeth-like notches at the tip of
the cursed blade.
The
youth stared deeply into the fiery eyes, flaring like blazing embers, and by
the expression on his pockmarked face, he knew he was looking into the face of
his own damnation.
* * * *
The
two friends stood from their table, hands grasping the hilts of their swords,
ready to fight.
Within
a shadowed corner in the back of the tavern sat another man who had simply
bided his time and watched the warrior upon his arrival. Dressed in hides with a
hooded animal-skin cloak draping his shoulders, he watched the scene unfurl
before him, yet showed no surprise upon the turning of The Marked One's eyes,
or the glowing, pulsating heat of the sword's blade. He merely continued to
drink his ale, undaunted by the suddenly charged atmosphere.
The
hood hid the man's face well as did the shadowed corner, but both did little to
hide the fact he was an archer and hunter. A hint of fading sunlight and the coming
red moonlight caught the tip of his longbow resting beside him against the wall
like a trusted friend, within reach should there be a need.
The
insolent youth who had brought the challenge would die this day, whether by The
Marked One's hand or by his own. The source or method of his death did not
matter, just so long as he died.
The
hooded man eased his pelt-clad feet from under the table, ready to stand and
move into battle if the situation called for it.
He
did not care that no one paid him any mind. In fact, he preferred to go
unnoticed as he watched the scene before him. The Marked One spoke, and his
voice was filled with both sorrow and warning.
"Will
you die this day?" he asked the youth. The words were merely whispered,
but in the quiet settling over the people, stilled by the young man's audacious
challenge, they came out as more a heraldic decree.
"No,"
the youth replied with a sneer. "But you will."
Before
being forced to relinquish his will to the curse, The Marked One spoke what
sounded more like a yearning birthed in the deepest hollows of his heart. "Oh,
how I wish that were so."
The
heated desire of bloodlust showed in The Marked One's shaking body, his heavy
breathing. The hooded man studied the cursed warrior's stance, the clenched
grip over the carved skulls in the ivory hilt of the sword. He saw the face
muscles twitch, the jaw tighten. He knew all the signs. He had studied. He had
questioned those who had witnessed past encounters with the warrior of the
Blood-Rage. He knew the mark over the heart would begin to glow and pulsate, if
it wasn't already doing so.
He
watched with keen interest as the red blade arched through the air, only to be
blocked by the youth's sword.
The
two other friends stared, stupefied, at the mark pulsating with each beat of
the cursed man's heart. "He is a demon!" one shouted.
The
foolish challenger pushed against his opponent and laughed. "Then I will
be his exorcist!"
The
Marked One bared his teeth, and a low growl formed at the base of his throat. The
growl of a sho'eme lion would be hard pressed to match it. Would it erupt into
a roar?
The
red blade slashed down and cut an incision along the youth's chest. The youth
stumbled back and grabbed the bloodied area. His hardened face twisted with
anger at having first blood drawn from him. At any second he would give into a
rampage, which would make him an easier target for his opponent's notorious
skill.
Yes, Ka'lak,
the hooded archer thought. Make him lose
his focus so he may not see death claim him.
When
the warlord's two friends headed into the battle, thus driving the patrons and
tavern owner to flee the building, the archer made his move.
* * * *
In
every battle, every fight, The Marked One was doomed to relive the night that
stole his peace, the night when he sought revenge for Terahn's death and for
the abuse heaped upon his own body while in captivity. He saw only Verma
warriors each and every time his sword was infused with the rage of his soul. He
lashed out at memories still alive and real in his mind. The night of his being
captured and cursed played again and again… always.
He
saw two more Verma come to the aid of their injured friend; then suddenly
another appeared at his side, a man with long black hair, dressed in the animal
skins of the Swarrin race. The cursed warrior froze when he noticed the face of
this Swarrin. He watched as the Swarrin cut down the two other Verma with one
stroke of his tusk-embedded mace.
"Amenaka, Ka'lak!"
Using
his own language, the Swarrin had spoken a warning, and the warrior turned to
block the blow of his challenger. Confusion fractured his mind, and he
fluctuated between the rage in his soul and the familiar comfort this Swarrin
warrior brought with him.
Memories
of Terahn falling into his arms filled his thoughts: the knife protruding out
of his lover's chest, the blood streaming down Terahn's firm abdomen, and the
deeply brown, pain-filled eyes fading into sightless death.
The
Marked One's focus slipped. "No," he muttered.
The
youth swung his sword and cut the maddened warrior's shoulder, but the pain of
the wound did not come close to eclipsing the pain in his heart. He stumbled
backward and fell to his knees. "No!"
He
heard the sound of metal against metal and knew the Swarrin had taken up the
battle with the challenger on his own.
The
Marked One did not care. His mind twisted and turned. Fantasy spun out of
control, mixing reality into its maelstrom. "Terahn?" he whispered in
confusion, unable to believe what he saw. The Swarrin warrior looked so much
like his dead lover, he could not help but think Terahn's ghost had come back
to help him in some way.
He
cringed with the confusing images of his tortured dreams coming to life before
him and he fell deeper and deeper into them, forgetting the present battle that
no longer concerned him.
He
wanted death to take him away. He wanted the peace death would bring, but it
was not to be. The dreams would not let him go. His past reasons for living—Terahn
and…
Stephen, Stephen, Stephen.
The
music filtered into his shattered reason, drawing him away, urging him to push
back the red heat of his fury.
He
lowered his head to the wooden floor and sought shelter inside his shaking
arms. He screamed the scream of a madness that harbored no mercy, of a thick
and smothering darkness. No, he was not the one to ignite a volcano; the
volcano would ignite within him. He wondered which part of him would be ripped
apart first by the massive eruption… his body or his mind?
The
force of his screams was of such magnitude, the people of the village would
later report the tavern had shaken with the reverberations.
And
then, after it seemed the wails would never cease, they finally died slowly to
tormented moans.
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